If you've frequented this web address in previous times, you'll notice there've been periodic changes. Many of these are reflective of my growth, change in motives, and desires. My initial intention with this domain was to have a personal website "showcasing" my accomplishments along with blog posts that so happened to be "Christian."  I'll explain more about the latter soon. 

I felt then that, at least professionally, it was a reasonable approach on my part: in having my platform and in being intentional about who, how, and why I connected with people. I recognize that underlying that motivation was an air of self-importance. I've come a long way since then and have separated myself from that motive. 

My desire for sharing through blog though was guided by sincere motives. At the time, I had begun honestly seeking God and was encountering legitimate learning experiences and beginning to see Him. Yet, I wasn't fully renewed unto His ways, and I recognize that there were areas of hypocrisy I had been oblivious to. I cringe now at the fact that even with sincere motives, I was not representing in all capacities who I professed to know, nor His standard. I cringe because I was sincerely wrong and may have brought reproach on the name of Christ or caused someone to err by my lack of diligence and understanding then. 

I live by the faith and righteousness of Christ, not my ideas or standards. Now, having been set free from those and walking in newness according to His lovely ways, I want to take vengeance on past hypocrisy and unrighteousness. 

Even though I was growing in knowing God and His conviction, my unintentional hypocrisy was a result of a lack of application of God's truth in all areas of my life. Simply put, there were areas in which I had only intellectual acknowledgment but not wisdom. I needed to be scrutinized first in the light of His truth. 

Once that began, my change occurred seemingly rapidly, though based on a sustained period of seeking God and having my mind transform and be renewed. Wisdom became the principal thing when the knowledge I had acquired through seeking Him and learning from Him became translated into action. I began to see God for who He is and to hold myself accountable to this reality. I fell in love after meeting Love Himself. I became filled with His Holy Spirit and matured in discerning God's good from this world's "goods." 

Consequently, I quickly came to expect of myself and others that which God expects of us.  l recognize that some, due to limited interactions with me, recall only former things. While some perceive only clamor and religious zeal. There are others near who know how deep and complete of a regeneration I've experienced in the Lord and how I continue therein. And this I know, I'm not who I was nor will I ever be.